Tell me why she looks a lot more happier when nobody mentions me but when the moment somebody mentions me she'd immediately go nonchalant. Tell me why she brings people around her every time we go ask her to hangout with us. Time check: 6:37am. Just got informed that Charlie Kirk did die. I saw the video too, by the way. Went straight to his neck like he was gonna have a piercing spectrum. His blood genuinely splattered everywhere the moment the bullet made a hole on his neck. Wasn't really that bad, but, still is, actually. People were watching. I guess somebody died for me. His arm looked like as if he was about to move it and touch his neck, but then, he lost consciousness. I wanna die like that. Just dead immediately. Wouldn't even notice I was shot. My ideal death. Time check: 7:29am. Just arrived in my classroom. To be honest, I think whatever I say would happen. I remember saying in my LifeStory that stupid people should die(?) not sure. But, I'm very sure I said that. I'm just not sure where. Guess they took it too seriously, and actually killed a stupid retarded person. Finally. Finally. Life is starting to look a bit bright. The birds chirping. The background music being some kind of a luxurious restaurant ass ambience. I love it. Everything is so perfect. For somebody stupid to die? Wow. It seems like everybody's getting killed BUT me. Honestly, I still think about that video I saw in seegore.. it was literally just a girl crawling, and somebody recording her and her eyes were out of her eyesack and it was just swinging whenever she would crawl to the person recording. It was a pretty much dark place, actually. There was a spotlight though. On her. She was also cuffed up. That was like probably old. I saw it in 2023. Time check: 8:14am. Homeroom time, so that means free time. I'm bored. Yatter told me Batman is absent in the morning. Didn't even ask, by the way. Time check: 12:59pm. I genuinely feel like this is my last straw. I can't take it anymore. I genuinely want to die. I want to kill myself. I want to overdose myself. I want to overdose myself. I want to overdose myself. I want to overdose myself. I want to die. I want to kill myself. Time check: 5:15pm. Honestly, I don't care about C.K dying. Honestly, people are too conservative for me to say this. He put himself in that. He did that to himself. Be conservative and hate on empathy, you'll receive that in return. Make yourself look like a fool. Involving your family. You're nothing but a stupid retard. That's why, I don't care about him. As much as y'all are upset, I'm not. People die anyway. We're all gonna die. Freedom of speech, as I say. I don't have much to say today. I'm physically and mentally tired. I genuinely hate everything and everyone in this world. I'm glad people are having the worst days of their lives right now. Atleast, I'm not the only one. Good. I'm just done. I want to die. I've made lots of suicidal jokes, and as much as I don't wanna say it. I can't stop myself. It's my way of coping. These suicidal jokes I have are genuinely what I think about doing to myself. My parents are glad they don't have pills that could make me overdose. I genuinely cannot keep up anymore. I want to overdose. If I were to commit suicide, I'd definitely choose overdosing.