Time check: 6:38am. Seriously. I hate it when people annoy me early in the morning. KEY WORD: ITS EARLY IN THE MORNING. Time check: 4:27pm. All I did was play volleyball with Agold, and her friends. It was so fun. I'm pretty sure my arms are gonna be filled with circle bruises. I like it though. I like the sight of it. OH, also. Time check: 6:27pm. Wow. Notice that 27 minutes in the time? Anyway.
Batman Closure
I'm pretty sure I've moved on to Batman. Genuinely. I just got the genuine bad ick from the fact that that dude she's been hanging out with, turns out, he's a really touchy weird motherfucker. Absolute weirdo, by the way. She did say she hates that dude but, she never specified to me why she hates him. Seriously. On top of that, he also has a girlfriend. A grade 9 girlfriend. Can somebody call this guy out?? That's genuinely disgusting?? Honestly, I'm not jealous. I genuinely feel betrayed. That's seriously disgusting dude. She didn't even bother to tell me anything?? She clearly knows by the way. That I like her. And, what did she do? She just STAYED SILENT. That's ALL SHE'S EVER GOOD AT. STAYING FUCKING SILENT. Somehow she's louder in her tiktok reposts but, in real life? Just a silent fuck. Absolutely annoying. You said you didn't like initiating uncomfortable talks? Then, why the FUCK did you even bother to be with me, if you knew I'd take things seriously. She never really took me seriously. She'd always take her shit seriously. It's annoying. Seriously. SO annoying. I feel betrayed, and dissapointed. Oh yeah and also, I literally asked Yatter to tell Batman that I have something to tell her later, and you know what? It was almost time. What did she say? "Oh, I'm gonna go watch our house playing!", and it was already dismissal. Okay, her driver is probably there already but, seriously. She could've just told me that she's gonna go. What did she do? Fucking went ahead already. Didn't even bother to wait. Not at all. What a monstrosity. That's just piece of shit behaviour. I genuinely dislike that SO MUCH. The guts to repost about a guy saying how beautiful his girl is, and them being happy. Yet she can't even do anything like that. She was only good in the first 3 months. The next? OH, trust. She genuinely sounded like she was disinterested in it. For fucks sake. She didn't even give me a palanca letter when I literally told her yesterday about it. "Oh, I forgot to write one!", I'm just not that important to you, am I? For you to forget something so meaningful to me, and that being my last chance of giving you a LAST CHANCE. Seriously. That's just pure disgust on my face. The ick I fucking had from that. That's just pure bullshit. That really was her last chance. She fucking fumbled me. She'll never find somebody like me. She'll never find somebody who's most caring, overly considerate, consent first and a big top priority to never make them feel uncomfortable, actions louder than words, patient, loving, self aware, emotionally intelligent, changing my wrongs, gives love letters and gifts, no need for anything in return, just them to be themselves. Oh, did I forget to mention ME?
Half
Okay. Guys. I made her a palanca letter about how I feel, I mentioned my feelings towards her, how I know we're not that close, how pretty and cool she is, and yeah. etc etc. I'M SCARED. SERIOUSLY. SHE'S SCARILY INTIMIDATING. SERIOUSLY. Like, she's genuinely scary. Even though she's soft spoken. I added "I dont want to make you feel pressured, I dont want anything to change between us, we could just be classmates and act like this letter never happened" or some shit. But, yeah. That's about it. She'll read it during the retreat time. Oh, I also wanna know her thoughts about the "I really want to be friends with you" thing. I really do, actually. She's really cool. I don't have much to say. Can you tell? I don't know her that deep, that's why. AGHHHHHHH Crap. I'm so scared. She's so pretty, though. Like, actually. PRETTY. SUPER. Gosh. Now I sound downbad. I'm not gonna expect much cause I already know the answer. You already know what it is.