Time check: 7:11am. Just got here in school. Actually no. I've gotten here like minutes ago. I just forgot to update. Anyway, day hasn't started at all so I don't have much to say. School, of course. Atleast I won't be bored at all. I'm just listening to music right now. My classmate went on the wrong seat, honestly. Didn't wanna make her feel embarrassed so I'll just let her be, and let somebody tell her she's on the wrong seat. Ehh. Humans make mistakes anyway. But when it's me, it's already the end of the world. Wow. How come I've never been given a second chance but I've given so many chances to other people? Humans are stupidly retarded and annoying. Okay, sorry? That I'm genuinely just self aware and that I know how to show self respect and respect in general. "Too good to be true" my ass нахуй. Why can't I just be the way I am and not to be told that I am "way too good to be true". I've made mistakes too. But, somehow. It ends up as the LAST. I'm pretty sure she's mad at me right now. She won't even interact with me. In real life, and in the internet. She won't even check my stories in instagram. But I can tell she's online because of her active status. What a burden. Her reposts too. They seemed to hit directly at me. "Mental health is not a good excuse to what you have done", sorry I couldn't keep up and handle my emotions that lead to us being broken apart. I get that's my mistake and fault. I get that. I've always gotten that. I know and am self aware of my mistake. Does she, though? She'd just think of it as calling herself a "villain". Can't you be self aware for atleast once? Whatever. Pissing me off. I don't understand why people start complaining about somebody whom pissed them off, but do you understand their side? That's the thing. I don't know her side either. That's why I'm gonna have to talk to her during intramurals. I need to get my mind straight. I don't want to be drowned with my assumptions. It's obvious that it's right there. She doesn't care about me anymore. She doesn't like me anymore. She doesn't have feelings for me anymore. She's done with me. I just want her to say it herself. I want to know and understand it's over, instead of asking somebody to tell it to me for her. Come on, dude. No. I want to hear it from her. Everything. Was everything we did not really serious to her? Was I only the one taking us seriously? Am I just an experience for you? A person you can fill in that empty hole gap of your life and once you get a grip of yourself, you throw me off? Am I just somebody you're trying to love? This is stupid. Unrequited love. I hate your guts. I hate everything about you. The way you don't even look at me in the eye. You don't even bother. Okay, time check: 5:32pm. Just finished school. I had fun today. Considering how yesterday was really boring, so I really did a lot today. Did some random shit. Maybe even "embarrassing" but to me? It isn't. It's fun. Nobody cares. I was really active today. Wasn't really sad or anything. I've already accepted it. That she's over me. I did think of the "what-ifs" but that's all. Like I've said, I've already accepted it. I'm just thinking about the other option is. Which is "Second Chance". Highly doubt that would happen. Part of me still does hope though. Except, that hope is like 0.001%. Stupid, yeah. Whatever. She was telling pretty today. Actually, she's always pretty. She's so cute too. SUPER CUTE, and I wish I could tell her that. I will. Her hair actually grew. So much. Wow. I'm amazed. She looks even more intimidating than she looked with medium hair. Long hair her will be the death of me. Crap. Too cute. Too gorgeous. Too pretty. Too fine. Too mesmerizing. I hate how I went from disliking her attitude towards me to being inlove with her. I'm crazy, dude. Bipolar even. What if I am really? Nah, I wouldn't wanna let that dwell in. Let that sink in, for sure. Bipolar or what, as long as I'll have her back, nothing matters. It's her or it's no one. I'm serious about that. I'm serious about her. I won't give up that easily. I may have "given up" but that was just a give up to pursuing her. Considering it, I still have a chance. I wanna fight for that chance. Do I actually? I'm assuming now, lol. I'm not actually sure if I do still have a chance. Okay, wow. OKAY. HOLY CRAP. SHE JUST LIKED MY TIKTOK STORY. THATS A FIRST THIS MONTH. You don't get it. This is genuinely the first encounter in a month. It was about a picture that says "Starting a new Thai GL" and then a dude looking back as a way to show how he'll never move on in which the text added "23.5". I love that show so much. I relate to that post. That's why I posted that on my story. And she actually liked my story. MY story. SHE. LIKED. MY. STORY. BATMAN LIKED MY STORY. HOLY. CRAP.