Time check: 7:02am. Dude. I woke up so early. Like somewhere between 1am to 2am? I was genuinely having abdominal cramps. I don't know. It felt very hurtful. I had to apply that minty oil. Efficasient something. It's hard to spell. (efficascent oil). Anyway, tell me why Route told me I should revise my answer just because it had "disease" in it. Where the fuck is the disease in my answer? Are you stupid or are you stupid.. literally nothing in my answer said anything about disease. All it talked about was the safety for students and suggestions and shit. None about "diseases". Whatever. Crazy retards. So, I'm bored. I genuinely don't get my lessons right now. All piled up. Science is now math, and to top it all of, math has some similarities with science in formulas. What kind of? Such copycats. Not even an originality anymore. Lol. This is stupid to be honest. I understand it a bit. It's just substituting. But, I'm so sure I can handle it if it's open notes. Without open notes? I'll have to cheat. I'm so sure most of my classmates cheat. Most of the students at the back, actually. Their grades are so high and yet they're noisy and barely take notes. Now, that's true teamwork. Somebody was probably paying attention to help them cheat. Just kidding. Anyway, I just saw some students wearing civilian. We wear uniforms to avoid confusion. Those students were probably about to have their recollection. Something for christians or catholic. I'm in a Catholic school so it's reasonable. I'm not though. I heard even if you aren't in that religion, you can still join. It's required, actually. I like that. I could hangout with my classmates more. Also, we're gonna be having retreat as grade 10 students. Grade 7 to 9 only get recollection. Grade 10? We get retreat. Basically a class sleepover but on a retreat house. It's exciting, actually. I need it to be like "Eerie". That Filipino movie about Christianity and other stuff. That was actually pretty scary and cool, I'd say. We watched it during fiesta with other students out there since it was basically a mini "theatre". We do have a mini theatre, but they decided to hold the hosting inside the library. Nearby the discussion room. It was nice actually. It was gorey, and somehow we got to watch it. No filter at all! I like that. I to be honest want to atleast experience one paranormal activity in my life. Atleast one. Retreat houses are known for being a bit scary, as you know, "Eerie" basically. Well, that's where I wanna experience that "one paranormal activity". In a retreat house. Just like the movie "Eerie". Also, we'll be together with another section. Merged. The section next door to us. It's exciting because, Yatter is in that section. Which means, we three(Route, Yatter & Me) will be in the same retreat house. I'm so sure it's a really traditional mindset one. Where girls have to be in one room, whilst for the boys too. Understandable. That will probably either mean we'll sleep together with the girls from the other section or we'll be sleeping with the girls from our class. Any is fine. I just DON'T wanna sleep alone. It would've been better if Batman was there too. I jokingly said this a few months ago that if we do become classmates I'd make her my buddy. So, everywhere we go, she'll have to come with me. Basically, even if I shower too. I did also want it to be like "roommates" in each rooms. If we WERE classmates. Sad truth, we aren't. Reality hits. Anyway, I prefer sleeping with everybody in a big spacious room. Even better if we'll sleep on the floor with a mattress. That would make me fall asleep so fast. Time check: 7:28am. I'm so bored, and sleepy. It's gotten a little bit too cold. I need the fans off. I'd love to fall asleep right now but, it's almost time. We start at exactly 7:45am, as for our homeroom. 8:00am is when the subjects start. Time check: 10:57am. Just had recess like 57 minutes ago(10:00am). Anyway, I asked Yatter to tell Batman about the tomorrow thing. She asked and told her "can you come with us tomorrow? Recess?", and Batman went "sure!", and Yatter told her another one which was, "Alien wants to talk to you", and she went "Okay!", with an okay face. A smiley face actually. I'm not sure. I didn't bother to check, cause I was shy. When I do get the chance to look at her, I will. I'm not taking that chance for granted. I'm actually gonna look and keep an eyecontact. I can actually keep eyecontact. Now. I was ass at it back then. Couldn't even look at her whenever she would talk. Now? I'd look at her like as if I was yearning for her(in which is correct: I am yearning for her). I remember this, a few last Wednesdays, she and I were watching Yatter's club dance, and I was next to her, and I kept going closer to her. You know what she did? She went even closer to me. We were genuinely just secretly feeling our warmth. It's very obvious that we've both missed eachother. I think? Or, it's just me. I don't know. Lol. Anyway, same day as that happened, we were talking and we genuinely made eyecontact for a very long time. That genuinely was eye-gasm to me. She was just looking at me, and so was I. We were just silent yet locked eyes on eachother. It's like I can tell she also misses me and misses looking at me too. It's like she was yearning and longing. But, like I said, I'm not sure. It's just based on what I saw from her face. But, that's for sure how I feel about her. It's like I'm self projecting myself to her. Wow. Assuming much of me. Time check: 1:33pm. Just finished lunch. That was genuinely eyesore. That ruined my day. Shouldn't have bothered seeing her before the talk, to be honest. No wonder why. It's just, she's still not really talking to me. She made eyecontact with me but it was like 0.01 sec. She also smiled while walking on the hallway. I'm so not sure who's that smile for. Time check: 9:19pm. Listening to music. Honestly, that still bugs me. Who was she smiling at? Whatever. Anyway, tomorrow is the day. The day I'll tell her about the plan in confronting her. To know her side, and let her know any improvements and updates about me. Just a heads up. Won't get my hopes up at all, honestly. I know we won't have the relationship we used to have. It's clear. It's obvious. It's like looking at a seen-through glass. Tell you what, It's obvious. She does NOT want to be in a romantic relationship with me again. It's a sad harsh truth but, I have to accept that. That's reality. That's the truth. Dude. Never get your hopes up. We have this option to choose which shirt design would look better for our intramurals, and.. I will say. The shirt we wanted was not the chosen one. They'd rather choose the "hip-hop" looking shirt with so many UNNECESSARY shit in it. Also, its 400-500php. That's utterly stupid. A design that's genuinely so stupidly basic that is worth 400-500php? Obnoxious. Consider this inflation shit. Whatever. It's Stupid.